I was sitting on my doorstep
I hung up the phone, and it fell out of my hand
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand.
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a cross road,
There's a choice you gotta make...

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side.
I guess it's gonna break me down,
The only way to try and find
That moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with Good-bye.

I know there's a blue horizon
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me.
But getting there means leaving things behind.
Sometimes life's so bittersweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side.
I guess it's gonna break me down,
The only way to try and find
That moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with Good-bye.

Time heals,
The wounds that you feel, somehow
But right now...

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side.
I guess it's gonna break me down,
The only way to try and find
That moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with Good-bye.

Soooooo...it's been a while huh?  Well a lot has happened since graduation, but of course no time to go into details.  Here's the gist:

Graduation was good...weekend at the beach was good too.  It was nice to get away.And as a graduation present to my parents...I got them a puppy   OK so I didn't BUY it for them, I just took them to the shelter, and they picked it out.  His name is Tanner, St. Bernard mix with some sort of retriever we think...not really sure though!

Moved in with my big sis and her pooch, Sadie.  Started my internship, and have been doing so since.  IT'S AWESOME!!  I love it there, I'm hoping they offer me a job, but I'm not sure if there is "room" for another CTRS, since there are already 3 there.  Love everyone there, love the kids, love the atmosphere, want a job there!

Spending time down at the barn too.  Working on Deacon's little "I'm not gonna jump anything" attitude.  Little does he know that once I get a job, I'm gonna get a trainer, and his ass is getting in SHAPE!!  He's been good though...considering I still don't get to see him as much as I want to.

Been out and about with Maria and crew of course. We've been causing enough trouble already, but have been good as always   Just raising a little rukus at the Turtle, Cantina, Chevy's (haha!), movies, the mall, just to name a few.  Def need to get out on the boat now that Steve is back in town from Florida (have I mentioned that I don't like Florida b/c it takes all my friends away from me!!?)

Most recently: Died of food poisoning Thursday morning, went camping with the Fam this weekend for Dad's day and Mom's B-day.  Had fun, but struggled through Saturday....since I wasn't totally recovered yet from dieing.  Visitied with some old friends from NJ that moved down here before we did. 

Now I'm procrastinating from finishing my work for school...boooooo.  I'm lovin this whole internship thing, but DAMN I hate all the stupid shit I have to do for school!!  Speaking of school though.  I figured out what I want to do with my life...other than get my farm.  I want to go back to school to get my Master's in Child Life.  This way it'll double my chances of working with kids...at least in theory it will.  Plus I've been talking with Lauren at work, and I'm likin what she does more and more.  So we shall see.

I do have to give a shout out to my little Emily girl for getting my the most awesomest graduation present ever!!  I now have a "One Tree Farm" stained glass sign with (what else...) a horse and one tree!  Total inspiration...dreams DO come true...it's hanging up in my apt so me and my sis can look at it everyday and say "one day closer to getting that farm!" 
Oh yea, graduation party was....interesting.  We'll just leave it at that.  Thank you everyone who came, and thank you everyone for all the awesome presents.  All of which will be helpful in more ways than one I'm sure.  MUAH!  THANKS EVERYONE!

OK...I really gotta go finish this damn work.  sorry it's been so long!  No promises that it'll be better next time!

So there's not a whole lot else to report on.  Same ol same ol.  I am officially interning at KKI in Baltimore (for those of you who don't know where that is) this summer...can't wait!  It's going to be so much fun.  Plus I get to live with my big sis!!   She's not too happy just b/c she actually has to finish unpacking from when she moved in (all the rest of the boxes and junk are in what will be MY room), but it's all for a good cause!  Now I can have a dog to come home to...yay!

Classes are classes...can't wait for everything to be finally done.  I think I'm going to get screwed though in my practicum class b/c my prof is so unorganized it's not even funny.  I'm gonna see what I can do to get out of all of that...but still - kinda worried about that.  Although it is only 1 credit...but it'll still look really bad if i get a bad grade in it.

Work is starting to really irritate me!  I swear the customers are getting ruder and ruder by the minute, and certain people just don't care and will undermine everything you tell a customer.  No names please.  I'm just getting frustrated with it all, and don't really know what to do other than to just wait it out until I leave.  I only have 4 more weeks there and I'm out.  Once I get back from Easter...it's my official 2 weeks notice!  I'll be sad to leave...but happy to move on.

So my birthday was wonderful.  I got some Oakley sunglasses that I've been wanting for about 2 years now (thank you Huck), a super fantastic Key Lime cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory...I know you're jealous Larissa! (thank you Emily), and a gift certificate to Bath and Body Works (thank you Mrs. Worrell).  Yea...so that being said, I guess I have to be nice now huh?  We shall see...I wonder what she would say if Huck decides to come home with me for Easter?  Prob flip her lid...should be entertaining nontheless.   Anyway, mom and dad aren't letting my have my present until I come home...and I'm assuming my sister as well.  Oh Mom and Dad sent me flowers with my fav lillies in the bouquet.  Also Lori is still waiting for whatever it is she got me to arrive.  Totally curious about what that is going to be.  Other than that, it was a lot of cards and good wishes.  Oh, but the best present was the official offer letter from KKI for my summer internship

Anyway...more typing than I thought it was going to be, but still ntohing exciting to update on.  Good luck to David and Lionel tomorrow as they go into their First Year's first show!  And may God help Maria stay sane...I'm counting on you Shannon since I'm not there!!!

Nite all